Hello, I am a mother of a gorgeous boy, whom I love endlessly. You have realised that you were in a "pink dream" about parenting before the real thing happened. So now you are overwhelmed by constant necessity to do something on demand of the littler crier, and forgot how it is to do what you want. The whole world has changed for you now. It feels out of control because there is not enough support or information. You make mistake after mistake and feel so frustrated.. You are not alone, other people also have been there. I was there too. Rest assured, this cloud has a silver line! When a mistake is made, when challenge is over, when hard thoughts are gone, you are getting stronger, wiser, more responsible, and mature. It feels difficult now, still, later, you look back and smile. We go through it together. Just call, and we talk.